“Art world” relationships and friendships simply suffer when I am not independently mobile. I am watching all my hard work in the LA scene go down the drain, at least I am going to the Bahamas for a month to work, which will be an easier coping mechanism, although when I get back I will literally have nothing. But work I always fucking have my work.
Final tonight. Critique tomorrow then I am done with academics, transfer presidency to new president, fill out forms for reimbursements, move out of my place into parents house, ceremony, butt load of well needed drs. appointments, sit in gallery till end of month. Go shoppin, get vaccinated, see my best friend god I miss her. Throw a hardcore party to make up for not seeing friends and graduation. Go to Sam’s, matt’s and stephanies house for graduation gatherings. Lunch with michelle. Go to the Bahamas with April. :) so close so so close.
I’m still thinking about the hug I had with my professor, Victoria Reynolds. It was a good long full squeeze. Best way to end the class. I had my first Csun art class with her in beginning painting. Then ended with grad painting. She is a mentor. I wish I could just skip grad school and ask for joint mentorship from the power couple. But i can’t so, Art center is on the list for grad school just because of Jeffery Vallance, oh and their print facilities are superb I heard from Eric Sandberg, Samantha Fields, Sean, and Danny Escalante
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Realizing I don’t have any “dreams”, I just know when I need to push myself harder to fulfill what I need in my near not so distant future.
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I’m sorry I was testy and on edge while throwing up blood, and crying from pain. I AM genuinely SORRY, no body deserves to be treated poorly. But, if you don’t want to take my apology with understanding. I have to go, too busy crying myself to sleep every night and waking up exhausted every day not knowing if my health can survive these next three weeks. Also busy, making shit, writing papers, taking tests, spackling and painting walls… just as busy as you if not more busy. and I am doing it while putting on a strong face, when my knees are week and I have a hard time standing up and being coherent.
If you don’t like me, then why the hell do you want to be with me.
Groundwork is a solo exhibition in honor of the foundation I have been lucky to build at Cal State Northridge. This is for professors, students, janitors, a particularly special handi-man, friends, and family who helped me stand confidently. Thank you for preparing me for the construction of my future. I love you!!
I hope you can make it.
A special thank you to Logan Bell , who created my postcards. Aren’t they just perfect!!!!He is the best graphic designer I have ever met.
“When we transitioned from species childhood to species adolescence, we had to do it one person at a time, which is what adolescence is all about. Separating the self from the parental system, so we can discover who we are as unique beings and learn how to trust/love ourselves.
Transitioning from an adolescent species into an adult species, however, will look very different. Adulthood isn’t “done” alone. We do it together, intimately and with those we love and appreciate. Thus it is that our species is leaving behind separation consciousness and alienation, and moving into harmony consciousness and cooperative living.
This shift is a COLLECTIVE shift for that reason. You don’t have to do it “all by yourself.” Find those who have already shifted and are shifting, and celebrate!”- fairy god mother, Eileen Workman
3 more days till the opening!
Much love and unicorn sprinkles,
Zz
